Lookstwice

    My girlfriend came back home this past week. We are working at finding a balance to our relationship, to live with the reality of what is happening in the world situation all around us, without letting it steal our joy in each other. I have been dealing with the feeling of teetering on the edge for so long, and she is teaching me to enjoy the day for its little pleasures. Today I have felt serene for the first time in… ages it seems. 

    When I try to think about the latest bit of disturbing news about the long emergency, and then consider how I feel, and how to blog about that, my head just spins. I want the peace without the denial. In truth, there’s no peace in denial for me, only cognitive dissonance.  What a way to go…

    During the past few days I’ve come up with a dozen things to write down here.  I couldn’t get any of it to gel in a satisfying way.  I certainly don’t need to reiterate the crimes that are being perpetrated all about us, that info can be accessed all over the web (but not on the nightly news).  Things are speeding up to an omega point, as Koyaanisqatsi made me feel in a visceral way years ago.  But this is where I am right now, today.  At peace but not blind.